As it happens, I have been feeling considerably better the last few days,
which is very pleasant, because I was quite miserable - and mind you:
"better" and "miserable" in a physical sense, though it is
generally but not always true that I also feel somewhat more
if I feel less miserable physically.
That's also not what one could call "an amazing correlation",
though I should add - and see the very fine Feynman videos I linked in
yesterday's Nederlog on the difference
between understanding names for and statements about things and
understanding the things - that personally I believe
socalled "psychological states" are states of or processes in the brain
as well, and I insist that that is the correct scientific procedure and
assumption, from which it follows that if one has no underlying
physiology, neuroscience, brainstates or processes in the CNS to underpin
one's guesses about "psychological states", one has nothing but - well or
ill intentioned - psychobabble.
But that's not what this Nederlog is about, although it is a reminder I
should write more about this, as it is of principal importance in
pseudo-scientific lies and delusions spread by the schools of Wessely,
Reeves and Bleijenberg, who are fundamentally - whatever they claim in
their pseudo-scientific prose - soul shrinkes and witch doctors in
principle, who confuse mere words and names with knowledge of what these
mere words and names should be about and, when properly used, are about.
What this Nederlog is about is about encouragement, in two senses of the
word, at least, and for the first sense I need to return to the Phoenix
Forums and for the second sense to my having sound again on my computer
(through the headphones).
1. Hung to encourage the others
My title is Voltaire's comment on the hanging of the English admiral
Byng in the 18th Century, and he used a mode of speech - satire, sarcasm
- that is presently forbidden on the Phoenix Forums, except to
moderators, who use it especially to insult
persons whose posts they have edited because they deem the text in those
I removed myself from the Phoenix Forums - I am
not a respectful dwarf, after all, nor one who is happy in
the company of respect vomiting liars,
impostures or idiots with swollen heads covered by absolute anonymity -
after getting and reading too many doses of deceiving, denigrating and
intentionally offensive private mails by moderators of the Phoenix forums
to me and idem public comments by moderators on others.
For me such a removal is also relatively easy, because I can make
myself heard and read on my own site, and can continue to read the
Phoenix Forums, where there still are a lot of people, indeed a great
majority, I like and admire, although not being a member anymore I can't
As I showed in
ME + me: Sweet relief: The Phoenix
Forums' Moderators the moderators have decided they are the Procrusteses
of the Phoenix Forums, for some reason I do not really understand except
for deep psychodynamic hypotheses, and having got rid of me, they thought
it high time to teach Flybro - whose quite sensible posts on moderating
you may find under the last link - how to sing in tune with the
moderators or be f'd over publicly, and to show off their powers, just as
Jody Smith started doing, they started editing Flybro's blog and posts,
brutally removing what they felt was not consistent with their own views
of their worthiness, and replacing it by snide comments on Flybro's
inappropriateness (is the PC-term, PC-prefered because of its total
arbitrariness combined with blandness of tone).
Flybro - like me - did not like that, and edited the editings, and was
then suspended or banned from the forums till early June, to encourage
all other members of the forum, that is to say: to remind all
other member's of the forums that they are, as some properly crouching
and licking members of the forums have it, "in Cort's house as Cort's
guests" and that Cort's bullies are regally allowed to have some fun with
some socalled "guests" of a size greater than most, since this clearly is
offensive to most ordinary men and women anyway, for which reason they
tend to love to see such persons cut down to the ordinary size and
obsequiesness to the powers that be, while telling them that they reached
too high and ought to be brought down to the appropriate level of
surrounding mankind "In Their Own Interest And That Of Our Community",
for We all know
how to moralize.
It happened much in human history, and Zamyatin (WE) and Orwell
(Animal Far, 1984), to name a few, wrote instructively and perhaps
amusingly about it....
So then some members started
a thread about it, which you can find under the link. All I have to
observe here and now is that (1) I am glad I left,
seeing now this (2) all moderators should go
(3) Cort and his moderators don't do this fairly, equitably or honorably
- even if their intentions are honorable, which I much have come to
doubt, meanwhile - for everything remains hidden, all is done with public
statements or suggestions that it is done for the best interests of all,
which is not so, and anyway (3) you just don't treat other adults in this
stupid and immoral way while (4) if you do ban or suspend people,
especially if they contributed a lot, you do so on the basis of public
personal accountability and not by some obscure murky process behind the
scenes, by mostly obscure people for mostly obscure reasons, concerns and
But anyway... Flybro has now been hung in public, with epithetons if not
with hemp, so as to show off who has the real power and what those with
the real power may do to others "in Cort's house as Cort's guests". (See
Machiavelli's The Prince, with my notes.)
And thus it
many, many, many mostly bloody ages, among
who do not want to admit they are both the majority and have the moral
responsibility for being the willing executioners of the smart bastards
they normally prefer as leaders over those who tell the truth and do not
deceive them. (*)
was it, to mean well! He caught a glimpse of that extraordinary faculty in
man, that strange, altruistic, rare and obstinate decency which will make
writers or scientists maintain their truths at the risk of death. Eppur si muove,
Galileo was to say; it moves all the same. They were to be in a position to
burn him if he would go on with it, with his preposterous nonsense about the
earth moving around the sun, but he was to continue with the sublime
assertion because there was something which he valued more than himself. The
Truth. To recognize and to acknowledge What Is. That was the thing which man
could do (..). They might be stupid, ferocious, unpolitical, almost hopeless.
But here and there, oh so seldom, oh so rare, oh so glorious, there were
those all the same who would face the rack, the executioner, and even utter
extinction in the cause of something greater than themselves. Truth, that
strange thing, the jest of Pilate's. (...) But then again came the wave of
sorrow over him (..) the thought of that cruel and brutish majority, to whom
the martyrs were such exceptions (T.H.
White, The Book of Merlyn).
meditation on this subject dates to 2007, mostly in English, and I quote,
"Pour encourager les autres" les hommes d'esprit, les honnetes hommes,
les hommes vraiment intelligent...
Society and the
good, the bad and
One way of
society - any
sufficient size, say
10 or a 100 or more
selected persons -
is that the
good : the
bad : the
stupid = 1 : 9 :
expressed but to the
same effect: the
unintelligent = 1 :
9 and the unegoistic
: egoistic = 1 : 9,
and intelligence and
Putting it all
in a table with
moral courage are
probably for the
determined by innate
Next, all members of
society have a
public and a
private face and
role, and the public
face consists mostly
assume is usually
1. composed of
lies that are
derived from what
they think is
supposed to be
of members of their
2. it is a
by an actor for the
society provides for
playing this role or
provides for not
playing the role and
3. it consists
of deception even if
happen to be the
one knows one is
playing a role.
Seen in the light of
points - the
egoism and the
fact that all
deception is the
norm - it is not so
strange nearly all
social and political
analyses are false,
phoney and illusory,
and also part of
And - it seems - (3)
is important: Those
who make a career
are those who are
known to be liars by
those who already
have made a career.
Somebody who is
honest won't get far
in any society or
group, even if -
very privately -
many will agree he
is honest and
The best expositions
I know about the
problems I am
treating here in a
Essays and Letters";
Hayek: "Road to
2. To encourage me and others, perhaps
It is very pleasant to have sound restored, albeit only via the
headphones. It allows me again to watch Youtube and hear what's going on
and there will certainly - with working sound - more on the joys and
disappointments one can find this way.
What I did yesterday was first refind a threepart interview with Bertrand
Russell, which was one of the last things I saw with sound, in October, I
After that, I dived into some of the music of my youth, that I liked to
hear then and heard a lot of, but never saw in concert or on video.
My choices may amaze some but I have quite a few personal memories
related to what follows:
Spencer Davis Group
Page, Clapton, Beck and others
There's much more I can recall - and these I recalled mostly, although I
don't have a good auditory memory, at least compared to really musical
people, which I know because I lived with a woman who played the violin
well, who was much higher gifted in this respect than I am - that I may
at some point mention.
Incidentally, I mentioned disappointments, and one series of
disappointments were videos of the Rolling Stones I found, where the
music is by the Stones, and indeed the pictures too, but these are all
strangely choreographed mock-ups rather than live-acts or
studio-recordings, and I found them all phony and irritating, besides
Another disappointment is that I didn't rapidly find a good video with Jimi
Hendrix, though there are some good recordings plus non-moving pictures.
And also, entering the field of esthetics, the above may not be to
everyone's taste either.
Indeed, I also have different tastes in music - such as
Renaissance-music, Bach, Handel, Vivaldi, Beethoven, Satie, Shostakovic,
yes to the blues and no to jazz and modern classical music - but the
above is some of the music I listened a lot to between ca. 1968 and 1971,
when I was 18 to 21, and I have many personal memories of friends,
parties and events connected with these sounds, especially, since I saw
none of the videos but one of Led Zeppelin before, and that not long ago.
In fact, it seems to be a fact that the times people recall best later in
life are the mostly adolescent years from 15 to 25 and that the music
they like the best is the music they heard then.
This complicates things esthetically, though I don't mean to seriously
discuss this now, but for making the points that (1) the felt complex of
feelings and values a piece of music evokes may also involve many
feelings and values related to the social context in which the music was
played and (2) for me as for most of my generation the world of music was
radically revolutionized in our own personal experiences with the rise of
modern pop-music, that really started on a large scale with the Beatles:
Music - what one heard on the radio, saw on TV, could buy on records, see
in concerts - was radically and spectactularly reformed within a few
years - since when it remained, interestingly, recognizably the same
(sorts of) style(s).
Incidentally, in the above group of music videos this can be illustrated
by Jimmy Page, the lead-guitarist of the Yardbirds and Led Zeppelin, of
whom there are videos playing the guitar from quite young and blackhaired
and quite old and whitehaired (as one will find upon searching).
Anyway... I had an enjoyable day, which is a first in a long time.
P.S. The last sentence is not meant in the sense that I have been
depressed or irritated (much) for that is not so (**),
but in the sense that I simply did not have much reason to feel joyful, what
with ever continuing physical misery, exhaustion, pain and poverty that
goes for me with ME, and indeed accordingly did not feel joy often (though
mathematics help, for example).
And another remark I should make for it may clarify such things as what I
mean to say and convey myself with this website for - intelligent -
readers of Dutch:
Richard Feynman is one
of the very few adults I saw - and I didn't see him until yesterday,
namely on Youtube - who is there (so to speak) and
who managed to maintain his original self, in the senses indicated in
ideas and/or my comments to these ideas:
As to ME/CFS (that I prefer to call ME):
1. Ten reasons why ME/CFS is a real disease by a professor
of medicine of Harvard.
2. Long essay by a professor emeritus of medical chemistry about
maltreatment of ME.
3. Explanation of what's happening around ME by an investigative
4. Report to Canadian Government on ME, by many medical experts.
5. Advice to psychiatrist by a psychiatrist who understands ME is an
6. English mathematical genius on one's responsibilities in the matter
of one's beliefs:
is wrong always, everywhere, and for anyone, to believe anything upon
7. A space- and computer-scientist takes a look at psychology.
8. Malcolm Hooper puts things together status 2010.
me! alas, pain, pain ever, forever!
No change, no pause, no hope! Yet I endure.
I ask the Earth, have not the mountains felt?
I ask yon Heaven, the all-beholding Sun,
Has it not seen? The Sea, in storm or calm,
Heaven's ever-changing Shadow, spread below,
Have its deaf waves not heard my agony?
Ah me! alas, pain, pain ever, forever!"
- (Shelley, "Prometheus Unbound")
"It was from this time that I developed my way of judging the
Chinese by dividing them into two kinds: one humane and one not. "
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