July 1
, 2014
me+M.E: The books I wrote (and the essays as well)

About my illness
About my writing(s)
The books I wrote
The essays I wrote
5. More that I wrote...

About ME/CFS


This is not a crisis issue.

In fact, it is about the forty books I wrote, and also about the fifteen essays I wrote. Most are in English, but some are in Dutch, and I had not realized I had written as much as I have: indeed at least 40 books, though a few are booklets, and though I also have not finished all of these, I did finish most, and also I wrote at least fifteen essays, of which some 10 have been published, on paper.

As an introduction, I will say something 
about my illness and about my writing(s).
And if you are not interested in philosophy you might skip this: There will be another Nederlog on the crisis later today.

1. About my illness

In 2014, when I write this and am 64, I have been ill since I was 28, for I fell ill on 1.1.1979, as a first year student, as did the woman I was living with
at the time, also a first year student of 24, who fell ill ten days later. We both had an Epstein-Barr infection (mononucleosis), and the first half year or so, which was  quite difficult for us because we had to do many thing because we were first year students, we had no problem being admitted as ill, and indeed after that the
university did also not deny that we were ill, while we were both dependent on student-loans, or at least I was until 1984, when I got dole, not long after separating from the woman I had been living with for nearly six years, in which we both remained ill. (She remained ill at least until 1998, since when I've lost
track of her.)

The dole also - sort of - "accepted" that I was ill - except that they did not admit me to a special service in which most of the Dutchmen with my illness ended up in at that time, which used to be better paying. (The reason was never given to me, but it may be because I fell ill as a student, and did so five years before asking dole.)

Until 1989 I did not know what I have, but in 1989 there was a program on the BBC World Service about M.E. and it was clear that this was by far the most probable disease I suffered from, because it had the same complaints as I had: no energy, postextertional malaise, feeling exhausted nearly all the time, having constant pains in arms and legs, and sweating a whole lot, and also because the most ordinary starting cause of M.E. is an Epstein-Barr infection that never properly heals, which applied to myself and to the woman I was living with when we fell ill.

In any case, my G.P. and several other doctors agreed with me that I very probably have M.E., which helped some but not much, because the disease is mostly not understood, and apart from sleeping pills and Prozac very little could be done for me, at least as long as I could walk around some, and take minimal care of myself, which I always could (though this was often quite hard).

There is a lot more about my illness that is relevant to my personal history, but in the context of the writing of my books I only need to add the following:

What I will present below as my writings were nearly all written since 1984 and while I was ill and in the dole, and most of it was written in small bits, that were much dependent on my health, that since 1995 has been consistently bad, and has never allowed me to walk more than a few hundreds of meters a day, and also has often forced me to go to bed in the day, simply because I was exhausted, and
could do nothing else.

Also, I very probably would have written very little of what I did write if I had been healthy, and in that case, of being healthy, I certainly would have published a lot more on paper than I have done, but I could not, because I was in the dole,
which anyway made major difficulties for me, because I was never declared to be ill, while the kinds of things I do write, which are mostly philosophical, are too difficult to be popular or to make money with.

2. About my writing(s)

I have known since I was 15 that I was a good and a fast writer, for then I was denied the right to hand in more essays at school because, as my teacher said "Then I have to give you a 10 again" - the highest mark - "and that would be quite unfair to the other children". (Fairness to me apparently did not count.)

But I also - apart from my journals - almost only wrote since I was 20 about philosophy or philosophical subjects (as conceived by me), or about subjects related to that, which is in my case mathematical logic, simply because I knew I wanted to study philosophy and wanted to become a philosopher or a logician.

This also did not change when I fell ill aged 28, and indeed for the first ten years or so of my illness I did not believe I would remain ill for 36 years, at present, in 2014; and I also did not believe I would not get any help for 36 years apart from minimal dole.

It turns out that I wrote - so far - at least 40 books, of which I published none on paper, because I wrote them in the Dutch dole, in which I have spend now over 30 years, because I am genuinely ill - except that the Amsterdam dole bureaucrats do not admit I am ill, and have tried to get me to work until I was 61.

3. The books I wrote

I will give the list of books that I wrote twice, first as a list of clickable links, and then again, with some details about each book. The "etc." means there is more, quite often a lot more:

1.  On Aristotle: Ethics: Notes to Book I etc.
2.  On Nicolo Machiavelli: The Prince : Notes to Chapter 1, etc.

On Rochefoucauld: 
Comments on selected Maximes
4.  On Descartes: Meditations: Notes 1, etc.
5.  On Leibniz: New Essays: Start, etc.
6.  On Leibniz: Monadology
: Start, etc.
7.  On Hume: Understanding: Intro S-B, etc.
8.  On Hume: Morals
: Start, etc.
9.  On Chamfort: Maxims and Thoughts: Chapter 1 - Notes, etc.
10. On Thoreau:
Introduction, etc.
11. On Mill: On Liberty: Chapter 1, etc.
12. On Mill: Utilitarianism: Chapter 1, etc
13. On Burckhardt: Civilization of the Renaissance: Start, etc
14. On Multatuli: Ideen 1, etc.
15.                   Ideen 2, etc.
16.                   Ideen 3, etc.
17.                   Ideen 4, etc.
18.                   Ideen 5, etc.
19.                   Ideen 6, etc.
20.                   Ideen 7, etc.
21. On Clifford's "Ethics of Belief"
- Start, etc.
22. On Russell: Problems of Philosophy - Start, etc.
23. On Wittgenstein: Tractatus - Start, etc.
24. MM's noten bij de Ideen:
Start, etc.
25. Philosophical Dictionary:
Start, etc.
26. Philosophical Essays: Start, etc.
27. The problem of induction: Start, etc.
28. Problems of Philosophy: Start, etc.
29. ME in Amsterdam: Index, etc.
30. Nederlog 2004 (Nedernieuws), etc.
31.             2005
(Nedernieuws), etc.
32. Nederlog 2006, etc.
33.             2007, etc.
34.             2008, etc.
35.             2009, etc.
36.             2010, etc.
37.             2011, etc.
38.             2012, etc.
39.             2013, etc.
40.             2014, etc.

Note that the links are usually only to the first file of my philosophical notes on a philosopher: From there you can get to the originals they annotate, and also to the other files, to which the same applies.

1.  On Aristotle: Ethics: Notes to Book I etc.

This was almost finished in 2007, when I lost the greatest part of my Notes to Book I, which also were never returned to me. This is a great pity, for that first part was quite good.

At present it is therefore not finished, though about 85% has been done. Also, it consists of notes to the English text of the Ethics, which is a process of which I am - to my knowledge, at least - so far the only user: I think the best way to deal with philosophical texts is to put the whole original text on line in html, and then write notes to selected passages in html, and link these together. (But it seems html is to difficult to figure out for most academically employed philosophers, so they don't do this.)

This I did for Aristotle, and for nearly all the other philosophical texts in the above list, which means that most of the above books are - carefully edited - notes to carefuly selected passages, that again are carefully linked.

I think myself this is at least as readable as any other text, and also is a lot fairer to the philosopher one comments on. If academic philosophers do not do this, as indeed they don't, the only valid explamation is that very few of them are real philosophers (which is true: most only make a career, and are at best half intelligent).

Also, I have taken care with all html editions of the works I've used:

They are good editions, that are well presented. My notes are generally sorted in as many books or chapters as there are in the original text, which means that in the case of Aristotle's Ethics there are 10 files of notes.

2.  On Nicolo Machiavelli: The Prince : Notes to Chapter 1, etc.

This was one of the first philosophical texts I commented: I think the original was done in 1997. It also is not a long book, though my notes take - including quotations of Machiavelli - 592 Kb, spread over 26 files.

Incidentally, this has been read quite well, and all of my notes are original, and some are still contested. Thus, I insist that The Prince is mostly satirical, namely of De Medicis to whom it was also addressed, and that Machiavelli's real opinions on politics are in his The Discourses.

3.  On Rochefoucauld:  Comments on selected Maximes

This was another early text, and it consists of just 1 file, that consists of aphoristical rejoinders to some of the aphoristical remarks by Rochefoucauld and, at the end, a few brief remarks about disagreements I have with him.

I think this is a fair treatment, and I also consider Rochefoucauld good, but not as good as Chamfort, of which more below.

4.  On Descartes: Meditations: Notes 1, etc.

This is yet another early text, and indeed is originally from 1995, the year before I got internet. There are 7 files of notes, that probably would have been a little longer and a little different if I had written this a few years later: This was an experiment, to find what I could do in html, and with one of the early WYSIWYG editors for html.

5.  On Leibniz: New Essays: Start

This is another html-experiment, also from the previous century: It is one of the few files where I did not put up the whole text, and also almost the only file in which the - plentiful - quotations from the text are mixed with my notes.

Note there are 65 files of notes, altogether - including the quotations of Leibniz - 2.5 MB. I think this is one of the best things I wrote - but you need to read all of it, for which this is a good link: this consists of a list of subjects plus links.

6.  On Leibniz: Monadology: Start

The Monadology consists in fact of 95 theses, that Leibniz wrote late in his life. I quote the whole booklet and give my comments. This takes 2 files. This is another set of files I am proud of.

7.  On Hume: Enquiry Understanding: Intro S-B

This consists of 14 files of my notes to Hume's Enquiry concerning Human Understanding. I think this is good work.

8.  On Hume: Morals: Start

This also consists of 14 files of my notes to Hume's Enquiry concerning the Principles of Morals, and again I think this is good work. Note this also contains notes to the various appendices.

9. On Chamfort: Maxims and Thoughts: Chapter 1 - Notes

This is the second text since Aristotle that has not yet been finished, mostly because the translation of Chamfort's text also is mine, and this takes time.
But it does contain the first 2 of eight files of my aphoristic notes to Chamfort, whom I like a lot, plus a small third one that introduces the Maximes.

10. On Thoreau: Introduction

I've hesitated whether I would include this, for I only fully quote one essay by Thoreau and a speech by John Brown, but I also give most of the quotable passages in "Walden" and in "Civil Disobedience", and there is 230 Kb of text divided over 6 files. So while this may be a booklet rather than a book, I include it because I really like Thoreau, and I also know there is not much to discuss with him, philosophically, at least: one likes him and agrees mostly, or one does not like him.

11. On Mill: On Liberty: Chapter 1, etc.

This consists of 5 files, covering 560 Kb of text, of my notes to Mill's "On Liberty".

12. On Mill: Utilitarianism: Chapter 1, etc

This consists of 5 files, covering 468 Kb of text, of my notes to Mill's "Utilitarianism".

Both sets of Notes - 11 and 12 - were written originally ca. 2005, and while I like Mill, especially the second is quite critical.

13. On Burckhardt: The Civilization of the Renaissance in Italy: Start

This also was done briefly after or before I wrote the two Mill sets of notes. Unfortunately, this is only the beginning, although there are 29 files covering 744 Kb of notes (and quotations). And yes, I do know Burckhardt "was really a historian" - but he was a very clever man, and a friend of Nietzsche, and he did have quite a few philosophical ideas, and that's why he is among the philosophers on my site.

14-20. On Multatuli: Ideen 1 - .... - Ideen 7

Multatuli's real name was Eduard Douwes Dekker. He lived from 1820-1887 and is widely (and correctly) regarded as the best Dutch writer. He also wrote 7 volumes of his ideas, which are very difficult to judge, because they are pell-mell thrown together, and are about anything, though that includes rather a lot of - especially but not solely - social philosophy and arguments against Christianity, for Multatuli was an atheist.

Nobody ever wrote a serious study of the ideas, except for me. I did it by taking every idea standing on its own, in one file, and wrote such comments as I have under that, in the same file, which links to the the previous and next ideas.

This was rather a lot of work, and it took from 2001-2007. I also was quite ill most of the time: I spent a lot of time in bed, alternating with sitting and typing. I like this a lot, but I do realize that this also requires a lot of reading. See also item 24, that is based on the same material, but consists only of a selection of my notes. (And yes: all of this, both Multatuli's text and my own are in Dutch.)

Incidentally, this part of my site - 3612 items, covering 46.5 MB - has been read (in part at least) by quite a lot of people, and my files about Multatuli were for some years the most downloaded, though this has now changed to Nederlog files.

21. On Clifford: The Ethics of Belief - Start

This also invited some hesitations, but is included because Clifford died quite young, namely at 33, while "The Ethics of Belief" is his best known work, and indeed is very good; and because I wrote 3 files of fine notes to it, that together take 146 Kb. This is also one of the best starts of philosophy,  because it can be read and digested in a few hours and is quite fundamental, especially with my notes.

22. On Russell: Problems of Philosophy: Start

This consists of 15 files covering 692 Kb of my notes to Russell's "Problems of Philosophy". This is another fine start of philosophy, although one really needs to read both Russell's original and my notes (and there is a lot more of both).

23. On Wittgenstein: Tractatus: Start

This I only finished last year, in 2013, while I started it in 1967. One reason is that the Tractatus is a very obscure book made up of - a sort of - aphorisms; another is that I lost my respect for Wittgenstein rapidly after 1970 or so, as I learned more mathematical logic and read more philosophy.

I have treated the Tractatus by putting each aphorism in its own file, writing my comments under it, and connecting each aphorism to the next and the previous files.

I have had some comments on this, but it seems to me - and I do know a lot of logic - that very few really understand him, and indeed the Tractatus is not only hard to understand but is also fundamentally mistaken. (The same holds for Wittgenstein's "Philosophical Investigations", but that book I've always considered nonsense, roughly for Russell's reasons, while I took the Tractatus initially more seriously, as did Russell.)

24. MM's noten bij de Ideen: Start

This is in Dutch (whence also the title) and derives from items 14-20 above:
In fact, this is a selection from my notes, with a few quotations of Multatuli.

In fact, one major reason for me to comment on Multatuli's "Ideen" in the first place was that I wanted to find out what I myself think about Holland, and this is a good - and long! - survey: In fact, it consists of 23 files of texts linked with 23 files of links to titles given in those texts, and covers over 3,1 MB of text in the 23 text files. 

As is, it probably is too thick - something like 4 printed books - but I do like it. Also, I am honest.

25. Philosophical Dictionary: Start

This is in English and in Dutch, though mostly in English, and was started in 2004, and is still ongoing i.e. not finished. It is meanwhile some 18 MB and covers over 635 entries, and is entirely original with me.

26. Philosophical Essays: Start

These are four of my essays in English, and one in Dutch, all pretty old. I started it - I think - ca. 2007, and never got much further than the 5 essays there are now, though I could add 5 more. It is over 400 Kb, so it is a none too thick book.

27. The problem of induction: Start

This is my solution of the problem of induction. It probably is too difficult, and it dates back to 1984 or so. It is almost 240 Kb, so it is at least a long essay. It probably needs some rewriting and is currently rather difficult to read, as it is quite densely written.

28. Problems of Philosophy: Start

This is my own "Problems of Philosophy", which consist of a treatment of some 50 philosophical key-terms in clear English. This started in 2001, but then was left without doing much. In the autumn of 2013, I provided the content for most items initially from my Philosophical Dictionary. This needs some rewriting. (Another good list is Key Terms.)

29. ME in Amsterdam: Index

This is in Dutch, and consists of the story of my mistreatment in Amsterdam in the University of Amsterdam and by the mayors and aldermen, who all preferred, for at least 26 years now, to serve the interests of the Dutch drugsmafia - yearly turnover: at least 25 billion euros only in soft drugs, probably double as much if hard drugs are also counted: this is the most profitable and one of the largest industries that the world owes to the proud and honest Dutch - very much rather than my interests o0r civil rights, who was threatened with murder by the drugsdealers: None of the mayors or aldermen I asked for help even ever answered any of my letters. (Also, some of the quasi-Jews - persons with a Jewish background but without a Jewish faith - in Amsterdam amongst the mayors and aldermen are grandsons or greatgrandsons of the rich Jews who betrayed and helped murder over 1% of the total Dutch population, that is, over 100.000 persons).

Note that "ME in Amsterdam" is large: 100 MB. It seems to have interested almost no Dutchman, and indeed I was also almost the only one to protest the destruction of the Dutch universities, and to protest against the mayor giving one of his mafia-friends the opportunity to deal drugs from the house in which I lived, rather than from his own house. (I do not know how much this illegal privilege was or is worth to the Amsterdam mayors: 5% of the turnover?)

30-40. Nederlog 2004 (Nedernieuws) etc. Start 1 & Start 2

This is in fact most of what I wrote: Over 200 MB of daily dated pieces, in Dutch and in English. This started in the second half of 2004 with versions of regular mails to my brother, who did not and does not live in Holland, about Dutch things, and was called "Nedernieuws" then and in 2005; in 2006 this was extended to anything I might like to write about, and was called "Nederlog"; and from 2010 onwards it is written almost only in English, while in 2010 and 2011 there is a lot about M.E. (but in later years considerably less).

The main reason this is so much is that it is written daily, and the writing is easy and fast. Also, most people who visit my sites these days read Nederlog: it is quite popular, indeed also the earlier and the Dutch bits, which are still being read quite a lot.

Note that all in all this is 235 MB, and the links in the above long list are mostly to the indexes of the years (that cover from 3,4 to 64,8 MB of texts).

The essays I wrote:

I also wrote a number of essays, and in fact considerably more than 15, but most of that more are about philosophy or logic, and are quite old, for they were written between 1969 and 1987, and indeed are not on my computer.

But I did write 15 quite serious essays, and here they are - and note the first 13 are in Dutch, although the first eight also have been translated into English: You can find the English versions under the first of the following links:

1 - 10: Spiegeloog-columns

          Hoeren van de Rede
          Mandarijntjes met een IQ van 118
          Echte wetenschap & echte psychologie = genot
          Yahooisme en Democratie
          "Ik wil gelezen worden"
          Waarheid en waarde
          Lichaam EN geest?
             De ideologische aap
Theo can Gogh interview (1989):
              "Ik lieg vaak"  - dl I
              "Ik lieg vaak"  - dl II
11. Multatuli en de Filosofie 
12. Gedebiliseerde Rechtsstaat
13. Over politiek, ideologie en taalgebruik
14. Fundamental Problem for democracy
15. Why philosophy is important  

Here are some remarks on the essays.

1 - 10: Spiegeloog-columns

You can find the details above. These were all published in the monthly "Spiegeloog", that was for the students of psychology of the University of
Amsterdam, and was published on paper. I wrote them only because I was
asked to, and almost immediately got large problems, among other things
because I was informed that "the scientific staff much likes to see you dead"
(which was indeed how many though indeed not all members of the staff
thought about me).

Also, these essays were written after I was removed, briefly before taking
my M.A., from the study of philosophy, and this was also what motivated my
alias, that first appeared in 1988.

As to Theo van Gogh: He was at that time a friend and an admirer of me, but
I dd not translate the essay that I did publish, mostly because it is only about
Dutch events and circumstances. Theo van Gogh got murdered in 2004 by an
Islamic radical, but I had lost track of him after ca. 1990.

11. Multatuli en de Filosofie 

This was the first essay that I wrote on a computer: In September 1987, on an Osborne (with 48 Kb of working memory, and with floppy disks of 128 Kb), but though this was quite small and slow, it did teach me a lot about computing.

Also, the essay was written because I had agreed that I would write my M.A. thesis on Multatuli, which I wanted because I could not find any decent philosopher in Amsterdam, but that went awry, firstly because the guy who had agreed that I could withdrew his permission (and then rapidly got mad, and had to be forced into a mental hospital), and secondly because I was removed in May of

I still think this is quite a good essay.

12. Gedebiliseerde Rechtsstaat

This is a long essay in Dutch that I wrote because the last German Nazis, who were responsible for the deaths of over 100.000 Dutchmen, were released from prison in 1989, which caused a considerable commotion.

I still think it is good, but it was too long, was read by few, and seems also to
have convinced very few, and also I got considerably more ill in 1989, so I did not do much with it.

13. Over politiek, ideologie en taalgebruik

This is another long essay in Dutch that I wrote in 1982, to explain what are the attractions and the set backs of the Communist Party of the Netherlands, that had both of my parents as longtime members, and even had me as a member from 1968 till 1970, when I left it because I disagreed with it and with Marxism.

I still think it is quite good, but it is only relevant for a few, and those I did address in 1982 were all deaf for political reasons, which might have been different 10 years later, but then I was quite ill.

14. Fundamental Problem for democracy

This was written in 2002, to explain what I think about the fundamental problem of democracy, which also kept me from voting since 1971: That there are so many stupid and ignorant people, all of whom have votes. It probably is too radical for most, but it did get downloaded quite a lot.

15. Why philosophy is important

In fact, this is by far the most popular item on my sites: It got downloaded in Denmark only in the month of June 2014 over 4000 times, and was just as popular the last 16 years, for it dates back to 1998 (and is in fact a slight rewrite of my notes to chapter 15 of Russell's "Problems of Philosophy").

I think it is quite good, and certainly it is the most well-known writing I did, though I also expect it was stolen many times, and handed in many times in the name of others (who are less knowledgeable about philosophy than I am, and may not know that my opinions are not popular amongst, indeed normally quite incompetent, teachers of philosophy in universities).

5. More that I wrote...

In case you might have thought that this is all or most that I wrote, I've got to tell you: No, I wrote much more, and most of it is on paper:

I have two steel boxes of 135 * 75 * 50 cms (which is quite big) completely filled with papers I wrote: Hundreds of small essays on logical and philosophical subjects I wrote in my twenties; hundreds of letters I wrote between 1969 and 1989; quite extensive notes on philosophy and logic, of which I also have 32 MB on my hard disk (but this is far from complete!); quite a few journals of many years, some short, but some also quite long, notably those of 1984 and 1985 (each over 200 closely typed A4 pages); and there also are many - at least 100, possibly 200 or more - 5.25 disks with typed information that I cannot read with my present computer, and that also have quite often have a password that I forgot.

The reason I can do very little with this is mostly that I have been more ill since 1993 than I have been before: Thus, I got the house in which I now live in 1993, and succeeded in moving, thanks to a great lot of trouble - but since then I have not even been able of sorting my ca. 6000 books, that were till then quite well-sorted, except in the very broad terms "philosophy", "logic and mathematics" and "the rest", simply because I've lacked the energy of sorting them (and had pain in my arms and legs nearly all the time since 1993).

But OK: I am a real intellectual, and one of the very few of those I have ever met who had intellectual pretensions, of which I have met very many, and I've also lived like one, against all the many extra-ordinarily stupid bureaucrats and the very many quasi-academics I have met in my life. Also, I am being read fairly well, for a philosopher, and indeed much more than I would have expected, which I owe to the internet:

I have been read, literally, by several millions of people (or at least: individual visitors, for I do not know how many come back) and have several tens of millions of hits over the last 18 years on my two sites.

About ME/CFS (that I prefer to call M.E.: The "/CFS" is added to facilitate search machines) which is a disease I have since 1.1.1979:
1. Anthony Komaroff

Ten discoveries about the biology of CFS(pdf)

3. Hillary Johnson

The Why  (currently not available)

4. Consensus (many M.D.s) Canadian Consensus Government Report on ME (pdf - version 2003)
5. Consensus (many M.D.s) Canadian Consensus Government Report on ME (pdf - version 2011)
6. Eleanor Stein

Clinical Guidelines for Psychiatrists (pdf)

7. William Clifford The Ethics of Belief
8. Malcolm Hooper Magical Medicine (pdf)
Maarten Maartensz
Resources about ME/CFS
(more resources, by many)

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