1. On being Dutch - the
2. On being Dutch - the
3. My current mB12
This file is not about the crisis, because there wasn't much to be
found about it, except for a quite good paper by Glenn Greenwald -
How Covert Agents Infiltrate the Internet to
Manipulate, Deceive, and Destroy Reputations - that I will deal with tomorrow, when there
probably will be another crisis file.
Today I will not write about the crisis, but about being Dutch, or
rather: about two (sides of) aspects of this, namely the language and
the country, and I will also say something about my current mB12
protocol, since that changed again four or six weeks ago, and seems to
help some again.
1. On being Dutch - the language
many reasons why one might be wanting to be a Dutchman. Most of these
have to do with the facts that the Netherlands is a quite rich country
or that it is a comparatively free country. Both are quite good
reasons, and though I could say rather a lot about them, I will not,
and simply take it for granted that quite a few people would want to be
Dutch but are not.
I am Dutch, and so were my parents and their parents; I have had a real
Dutch education, that also included an M.A. in psychology and a B.A. in
philosophy ; I have read a lot (in at least 7
languages, though most in English and Dutch); and I want to say
something about the Dutch language that most Dutchmen, at least these
days, simply do not see, and are not educated to be able to see.
The basic point is this: Dutch is a rather small language, in terms of
the number of its native speakers. It has at present some 28 million
native speakers, all told, and not only in the Netherlands but also in
Belgium, Surinam and South Africa, but that is it.
In contrast, there are at least a 100 million native German speakers;
at least 75 million French native speakers; while English has at least
360 million native speakers.
This in turn means that if you are a native Dutch speaker, and also
either do not speak any other language, or speak it badly, as is the
case with most current Dutchmen, your mental world is - rather probably
- a lot smaller than if you were, say, a native English
speaker. (I am speaking here in general terms: you may be a native
speaker of Shakespeare's language and never read him, or any other
great English writer.)
That their own language is a small language is not something
most Dutchmen care much about, as may be inferred from the fact that I
was among the last Dutchmen who had to learn three foreign
languages in high school (and five in grammar school) in the early
1960ies, since when all one had to learn, in terms of foreign
languages, was English, that most Dutchmen still don't speak well and
hardly read, and especially not if this involves reading Shakespeare or
Fielding or Dr. Johnson or Hazlitt or Dickens in English, and to do so
for sheer pleasure, as indeed I did. 
I am not aware of any serious or large scale opposition to this
massive stupefication of the Dutch, which means that most Dutchmen
liked it, and rather were dumb than well educated. (And indeed half of
the Dutchmen have an IQ below 100, as is the case everywhere, though
outside Holland their influence is probably a lot less.)
Even so, from around 1865 till 1965 a relatively large amount of
Dutchmen did learn at least three foreign languages (English,
French and German, with Latin and Greek added for those who went to the
grammar school), and could, at least, hold simple conversations in
them, while a few, such as myself, could read all three languages and
their literatures with ease, although it is true that this required
some more practice than I got at school.
At present, I am one of the last living Dutchmen who has had this
prerogative, and also one of the few living Dutchmen who used it well,
namely to read rather a lot of the English, German and French
literatures, and to do so not because I was forced to, but
because I liked to (and also did not like Dutch literature,
In any case: this is one of the main reasons that being Dutch
generally, at least these days, and since 1965 or 1970, means being
quite provincial, which I also say without saying anything about Dutch
intelligence, for this is probably rather like that of other Europeans.
Also, Dutch literature - quite unlike Dutch painting, which is
very fine - is not worth much (if you really can read English,
French or German, which few can) and indeed no Dutchman ever won a
Nobel Prize for literature (and deservedly so) .
So... if you are English, German or French, and meet some Dutch
provincial boors, try to remember that they speak a native language few
speak, while they also have now abolished for over 45 years the once
common practice of learning English and German and French, as they did
do for a hundred years.
being Dutch - the country
One of the
- very many - things Dutchmen are proud of is that a
considerable part of their country used to be sea, and indeed lies
below sea level, and has been wrested from the sea by enormous amounts
of hard labor and relevant knowledge.
This also happens to be true, and it explains why large tracts of land
in Holland are as flat as pancakes, and look like so (when seen from
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It so happens, as I knew already when I was a very small boy, that I love
I do not really know why, except that there is much more to see, and
indeed there simply is much more land on any given area if it is hilly
or mountainous than if it is flat.
Landscapes as pictured above are not really landscapes for me, even
though they tend to be what one sees if one leaves the city or the
village in Holland: they are pieces of the sea bottom, raked,
straightened out, with all dikes and roads laid out with a
straightedge, crossing at 90 degrees, and planted with grass, and I
find them very boring, and always did.
This is clearly a personal prejudice of mine, that is odd in a
Dutchman, but I have it, and indeed never was without it: I can still
recall when I was six or seven and my parents went cycling in the
polders that surround Amsterdam, clearly offering their children a
treat of Real Nature - and I saw polders everywhere and thought "this
Well... it is, and it isn't, but around Amsterdam it mostly is. (And
yes, it is also true that there are beautiful bits of nature in
Holland. But there really are no mountains.)
3. My current mB12 protocol
I believe I
have written enough about my reasons for adopting an mB12 protocol, and
will not repeat this here. Instead, in case you are interested, I refer
you to some of my previous posts, such as me+ME: My mB12 protocol from October
8, 2013. I think that is the latest one.
There also are earlier posts, which you can find by searching the
indexes of the last years with "mB12" or with "B12". I think the
earliest systematic post is from July 15, 2011: me+ME: My
present B12 protocol - so
this is not an ill-considered project.
Then again, there are at least two basic problems with it.
First, it is speculative and it also is, when taken serious, difficult
to follow, at least if you are not a bio-chemist or a medical doctor,
and I am neither. But it is based on solid bio-chemistry; it is taken
serious by several medical doctors; it has been lectured upon in
universities - see the late Rich
van Konynenburg's posts on Phoenix Rising - and it also has been
taken up by quite a few patients with ME, with various degrees of
Second, most patients who have started it, and who had results with it,
had experiences like I had: it works pretty well for some days or
weeks, maybe after careful titration, but then one starts having
problems, which in my case (that seems mostly normal) were of mainly
two kinds. A: There is the problem of finding the right doses
for metafolate and for B12, which can be quite difficult - and note
that one does need to take quite a lot of either. And B: There
is the problem of neither taking too much nor too little kalium (aka
potassium): either leads to problems, that also may be quite radical,
especially if one isn't aware of the need for more potassium.
There are more problems, but these are the main ones, and since the
treatment is speculative, and various persons may differ quite
a lot, the only thing one can do is experiment (which I would not
do and also would not have done if the protocol had not helped me
considerably, which it does, in spite of the difficulties, that may be
rather serious). 
There also is a third problem for me, which is that I got quite
serious problems with my eyes in the spring of 2012: I got keratoconjunctivitis
sicca, which meant that I feel my eyes all the time, and as
if they are abrasions through which I must see, and which also meant I
did not sleep sufficiently for 15 months on end.
This upset all my experiments in two ways: I stopped all my
supplements, to make sure my problems were not caused by them, and
then, when at long last I started again, I did not have a solid
baseline anymore, which had been rather reliably there for nearly 35
years of being ill.
I still have problems with my eyes, but they are, albeit quite slowly,
recovering, and I also again sleep mostly well, since about 5 months
now, which is a great relief (for I did not do so the previous 15
Here is the protocol I have been using for something like a month now,
each day, spread over two doses:
This is the directly usable
form of folate, and part of the protocol. (2 pills.)
vitamin C: 4
I think - statistics support
me - this makes sense for me. (4 pills)
vitamin D: 10
This turned out, when
tested, to have kept me on the safe side. (2 pills)
kalium: 800 mg:
This is part of the
protocol. I do need at least 400 mg, given the rest. (2 pills)
mB12: 1000 mcg: Note it is methylcobalamin, and
I currently use B12 infusion,
from Enzymatic Therapy. (1 pill)
calcium + vitamin D:
1200 mg + 5 mcg. This is mainly because I do not use milk anymore. (2 pills)
VM-75: A multivitamin
+ mineral supplement from Solgar, that contains about everything, that I will not list here, also
because it seems - experimentally - most is not very relevant for me.
And that is it, and I am
doing relatively well on this since a month. Most are as I used before,
but there are two important changes:
The vitamin mB12 I use is new, and comes in 1000 mcg a pill.
Before, I used Solgar's methyl-B12 in 5000 mcg sizes,
which turned out to be too much, and which also may have changed,
according to some patients, and grown less effective.
And the VM-75 is also new, though I have used this before, as a
good all in one supplement, and then stopped it because it contains
folic acid. My problem is that it turns out to be rather hard to find a
good all in one
supplement or indeed a vitamin B supplement that does not
contain at least one daily dose of folic acid (which in Holland
is also added to bread and other foods, all to prevent women giving
birth to babies with spina bifida, or so it is claimed).
As I said, I am doing fairly well on these supplements, but I still
have problems with my eyes, although these still are slowly improving.
But I am at present better than I have been since June 2012, when my
eye problems started, and that is good, and indeed considerably better
than I feared till September of last year.
P.S. Feb 26, 2014: I corrected some minor mistakes and
a major one: I do take 1600 mcg of metafolate lately. Sorry!
 I should remark though that my education also was
abnormal in several respects, of which one important one was that both
of my parents were sincere and intelligent communists, which certainly
must have had considerable effects on my education - except that they
are hard to see for me, because I have nothing to compare the education
I did get to. But I am certain that my education was a lot more free
than that of the vast majority of the babyboomers, and it also was
better informed about politics, economy and society.
 In fact, I am the only Dutchman I know who
did read Shakespeare
and Fielding and Dr. Johnson and Hazlitt and Dickens in English, and
while there certainly are a few more Dutchmen who did so (also without
having taken English in a university), it is a fairly small group who
can, and who do so willingly and with pleasure, as I did. Also, it is
true that I attended a university, in three faculties also, and rarely
met anyone who read serious English literature for pleasure, though I
did meet a fair amount who read English detectives.
 The only Dutch writer I know who is of
world class is Multatuli
(Eduard Douwes Dekker), who lived from 1820 till 1887, and whose Dutch
is exquisite - which shows that it is not the Dutch language that is at
fault. But no one wrote like him, or indeed even comes close.
 I have, of course, explained this to my G.P. and
asked for a test for MTHFR.
According to the internet, that is a simple bloodtest and costs 125
dollars. Well... for this one has to go to a Dutch specialist (I do not
know why: very probably to make them as rich as possible) and these refuse
to give me the test (while up to 40% of the population may have
problems with this, and also this is not much researched) - but were quite
willing to have me come to them in order to get a
verbal explanation that will cost over 200 dollars why they will not do
it. That is Dutch medicine for you: You are treated as an idiot
by some of the richest bastards in the country, who are willing and
capable of screwing you every way out of money, without doing anything
This is my experience with Dutch medicine, indeed with a few
exceptions, for 36 years now.
ME/CFS (that I prefer
to call M.E.: The "/CFS" is added to facilitate search
is a disease I have since 1.1.1979: