1. About what I wrote - 0
As before, a fairly brief Nederlog. And also as before, my writing
style changed a bit, in that I write about what I wrote, rather than
about ME/CFS or what is in the news, though I will return to that, but
not just now.
what I wrote - 0
I am a bit put off writing for this section - I must presume - because
I slept decently for nearly a week now, after having slept for
nearly a year far too little. (In last September I slept on average
some 4 1/2 hours a night, while I need 8 hours a night.)
At least, that seems to be the main reason, indeed together with
another decision I made, namely that I will not be writing
anymore as I did before - by which I mean: writing as I did since
the beginning of 2010, since when most of my writing was about ME/CFS.
Until then, I had for some 14 years written more and more of my site,
always piecemeal, and always more or less in hiding, because I am really
ill, though few people wish to believe this, and I also have had to try
to keep the bureaucrats away.
Now that has succeeded reasonably well, although I am still not
"an official Dutch invalid". But I have never been quite ill enough to absolutely
need support, and by now I am so old that meanwhile, and since
more than a year, I have An Official Letter that tells me that I need not
do any work, and also need not to do any solliciting for work,
until May 1, 2015, which is slightly a week before I get to be 65, at
which time - though probably now one month later - I am pensionable.
I still have to find out how that will turn out, but I suppose I will
not be off much worse than I am now - which is, all in all, relatively
OK: I think I get more money than the British and the US citizens in my
position, and else I would have most probably been dead, since I really
am ill, and have been ill since 1.1.1979.
Now lately - the last few days - I have been watching rather a lot of Gore
Vidal, who was an American citizen who lived from 1925-2012;
learned that he wrote over 20 books, and appeared rather a lot on TV;
and got to be quite rich from the books he wrote.
Of course, he was not ill for 35 years of his life - but as it happens,
I have done something similar, and indeed have done that mostly the
last 16 years writing on my Nederlog.
In fact, what I wrote was at least as much, witing only about
philosophy, and listing only what was finished (almost) - and I give
links to my comments:
- Aristotle: Ethics
Those are 21 volumes,
nearly all as long as the books they comment on, and all written since
1995, i.e. in the last 18 years.
- Epicurus: Principal Doctrines
- Machiavelli: The
- Rochefoucauld: Maximes et
- Descartes: Meditations
- Leibniz: Nouveaux
- Hume: Enquiries on Understanding
- Mill: On Liberty,
- Multatuli: 7 delen Ideen: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7
- Clifford: The Ethics of
- Russell: The
problems of philosophy
- Wittgenstein: Tractatus
They are also all strictly philosophical, though well written, although
indeed "strictly philosophical" is - perhaps - a bit strange as regards
Multatuli, though even there it is mostly merited.
Also, I have to add that on the moment the greatest part of the first
book of my comments on the Ethics of Aristotle is missing, and
indeed that text also was not quite finished, indeed mostly for that
reason, and because my health was not good. (It was there until 2009,
and it was quite good, but disappeared.)
My comments to the Tractatus are still not finished, but otherwise most
of it is done, and done well enough for a first edition, or indeed a
second edition in the case of Leibniz (though even there a few links
have still to be added).
The styles differ, as indeed do the languages: I spent most of my time
on Multatuli, in Dutch, while all of the rest is in English,
also if in the original it was in French.
Then again, although the styles differ, and although much is much more
closely connected with the texts I wrote my comments on than is usual,
and especially because I did something original: I commented the whole
text that was reproduced wholly for that express purpose, it is also
true that at least most of it is better written than most philosophy.
Besides... this is only the philosophy-section and in that only what I
got mostly or wholly finished (for there is quite a lot more in that
There is also quite a lot more on my site (and as above, only a
selection is presented):
- Nederlog: 10 years
- logic: Edwards
- ME in Amsterdam: story from 1988-2007
- computing: index of
- me: ME-Frame
Of the above, I
regret the most how little
there is in the logic section - but to do that well, I need to
have a better head than I have had the last 20 years .
Then again, the Edwards
section does excerpt a whole book and has long comments on it.
The ME in Amsterdam needs to be extended with another 5 years,
though I can mostly do that with my Nederlog.
What got rather a lot less over the last 10 years is the computing
section: I removed most, and only left (i) some pieces on various
languages (ii) some "bits
and pieces" - 26, to be precize - mostly relating to smalltalk or assembly and some
odds and ends relating to Linux or to Squeak (though the last is quite
a lot, but also quite old).
In fact, what I regret is the logic: FAR less than it would have been
had I been healthy, and what I am rather amazed about is the Nederlog
section: It is 10 years, but it also is at least 165 MB.
Now what I want to do is to write some about what I wrote since 1996,
which is in fact some 16 years, in which I wrote the above, and made no
money whatsoever with it.
I will leave that till the following days, and here will only comment
on why I made not a penny:
It is again mostly, though not only, the Amsterdam corruption. I have
been reduced to the above through my being genuinely ill, and being in
absolute need of some safe source of constant income.
If I could have lived as I lived from 1979-1988, when I did live almost
7 years from money I got for my studies, though I spend at most half
the time studying, I might have done without the dole, though I
was forced into that in 1984 through my getting no money to study
"because you have dole money", which I did not, and my getting
no money to live "because you
have money to study", which I did not, and also through being
rather lousy all the year of 1984, so that I had no choice.
Quite soon after that, the misery on the Elandsgracht started, whence I
was forced to move in 1985, and after that my health situation just got
worse, and remained worse, though it also varied - as is quite clear
when you realize this is more than 25 years.
Anyway... enough of that: Too much of a completely ugly and hateful
subject, that also cannot be restored.
What I do intend to do the coming days (and I don't know yet: it
depends on my health and on some other things) is to write about what I
Maybe I should briefly explain that point: While I did not have much of
a mental reaction the first 10 years, from 1979-1988, I did get a
mental reaction after that, that makes it considerably more difficult
to do formal stuff. I can do so, and wrote a great number of notes -
some 30 MB of notes, that is not on my site - but all of that was
incidental, not systematic, and to work these out, as I think it ought
to be done, I need a completely clear mind, at least most of the time,
and I have not had that for at least 20 years now.
(that I prefer
to call M.E.: The "/CFS" is added to facilitate
search machines) which
is a disease I have since 1.1.1979: