1. Updating the Nederlog index
2. Hunting the past
This is about updating the
Nederlog index and about finding out how things were.
1. Updating the Nederlog index
There was a lot of updating on the site in November: First I updated all of my Philosophical
Dictionary, and yesterday I returned to Nederlog, from what I
called NOTEBOOK, and now I am updating the Nederlog index, and indeed
the files in the directory from August 26,
2012 onwards, since at that date I stopped Nederlog and
maintaining my site because of persistent eye
I decided to return to Nederlog yesterday, and this requires updating
rather a lot. There are various reasons for returning, and three
imporant ones are that my eyes are somewhat less miserable; I found a
way to edit files in convenient dark colors without undoing the actual
light colors; and I like to continue several of the series that are in
Nederlog, such as the ones about the crisis and
about the DSM-5.
Meanwhile, it is rather a lot of boring work. Today I have put
September mostly in place, but there are some mistakes, and I did the
same with November, that now should link correctly, mostly. All of
October still remains to be done. And everything I have done needs at
least one corrective run, to make sure it all works and is linked
propertly: I ain't ready yet.
I hope that I'll get this done fast, for I realize I like
and I like writing
texts that have less forbidding backgrounds than they had to have
and also I like having my more personal statements in Nederlog,
that meanwhile is - among other things - one huge running series of
interlinked comments on and/or records of
several things that concern me, in which various Nederlogs provide
context, background, support or supplementation to other Nederlogs.
2. Hunting the past
Lately I have been hunting down memory
lane for various reasons, and it is not unlikely there may be a lot
about that on my site, because I
have two large amounts of personal
files: My own philosophical and logical notebooks since 1970,
together nearly 30 MB on my harddisk, and that is just part of what I
wrote since 1988, and my personal journals, that I kept on and
off since 1970.
My personal journals from 1988 till 2012 are also just in part on my
hard disk, and currently take 21 MB, nearly all plain html or ascii.
And the journals of almost half of the years are not there, while there
are also sometimes extensive journals on paper, from the years
As it happened, I have written those journals more or less
as I write Nederlog:
It is about what concerns or interests me, and I write things as I see
them, as I am writing. And I did write these things to have a record
In fact, I have rarely looked into these personal journals, but I have
done so lately, and sometimes this reminded me of quite a few things
either had forgotten or else did not recall with such details as I
did write down, which also helps me recall yet other details.
I had an interesting and a quite
uncommon life, that is a lot better documented
than most lives, especially as regards what I thought, felt, wanted and
Then again: how much of that extensive record of my life is
interesting to others is difficult to say, for various reasons.
For one thing, considerable parts of my journals since 1996 are little
better than brief daily records of what I did, normally recorded with
little detail and with few or no opinions, and indeed since 1996 I did
not do much else except being ill and writing for my site, simply
because I was too ill to do other things, after having grown
considerably more ill than I was since 1.1.1979, when I fell ill with
Epstein Barr, that was diagnosed as M.E./F.M. in 1989, which happened
between 1988 and 1991, and from which I never
really recuperated to what remained of my health between 1979 and 1988.
(If you read Dutch, the story is
in ME in Amsterdam
and in my C.V.)
For another thing, between 1970 and 1996 my journals vary a lot:
Sometimes there is nothing, for long times, also, which I now feel
sorry about, at least as regards some events and as regards my
relations with some
persons, and sometimes there are long eruptions of writing, with many
ideas, descriptions, and feelings about many things and persons, that I
recorded in considerable detail.
As I said, I found that what I did record does help me recall
happen to a considerably better extent than I could have remembered
without having written things down more or less as they were happening
This should come as no surprise, but it is nice to see it indeed
verified: Recording does help remembering, and indeed also to a larger
extent than one records. A written record of events that one
experienced helps one to recall these events better, and also
itself helps one recall events one has not written down.
These records are pleasant to have, because one's life is a sequence of
one's experiences, and to recall well how things and events and people
were, felt, or seemed, it helps a lot, I found, to have good records,
of some kind, and the best records for me is something that I wrote at
the time it happened, or briefly after it, especially if I wrote it
down in some detail.
There are years in which I wrote a lot: The year 1984, for
example, I found documented by me in 269 closely and carefully typed
large pages - probably nearly a 1000 pages when printed on a normal
book page - with many details I probably could not have
recalled at all without my having written them down, or at
least without me having written something down that then reminds of
And this finally leads me to the subject of the title
of my section:
I have at various points tried out whether internet, that started in
1990ies, does help one hunt down the past before it, especially if that
past concerns specific memories one has about specific people or
specific events that may not have been important to many others.
I found it does.
For example, in 1984 I met an
interesting and very good guitar player, Ronald Abrams, who
to have died quite a while ago, but who still can be found on internet.
Again, ever since I wanted to be a diver or marine biologist as a boy -
apparently always having a desire to go to the bottom of things - I am
partial to films about diving, and I made a note about seeing a film
the wreck of the Andrea Doria I saw in 1984 - and it so happens
that the same film, with Dutch subtitles, can be found on line: Check
out the last link if you are interested.
I could mention more, indeed some quite trivial things that I saw and
made a record about in 1984, that I could find material about on the
internet in 2012.
I do not quite know what this proves, except that it seems that lots of
people have put lots of things on line that documents memories for them
that they found worth preserving, and maybe interesting to others.
Anyway... interesting. Here is another bit that I found today that
evoked some memories for me, since I have been there, though quite
briefly, and in fact this is
the only pop-festival I ever visited: Kralingen Pop 1970,
in black and white, from the archives of the city of Rotterdam.
But I am not amazed there is some record of that event and that the
record is on the internet, since the event must be remembered by many
Dutchmen of my age as quite special.
What I found interesting is that in quite a few cases that I searched
there is some documentation on the internet about relatively small
events - as these events are scaled in the media - or about relatively
unknown persons or films.
I like that, indeed because it stimulates one's own memories,
and helps one recall more things, and indeed get an inkling of "what
things were like then".
P.S. My eye
There will be a new PS, probably with another name. In any case, the
eye problems are diagnosed as keratoconjunctivitis
sicca, quite possibly as a part of Sjoegren's
syndrome, which is a fairly common complication of ME/CFS, but
exists independently from ME/CFS.
necessary corrections have to be made later.