September 22, 2010


ME + me : Sweet relief + Ayaan and me


I continue being not well, for which reason I still have not yet written more on the DSM-5TM  and there also was no Nederlog yesterday. I also wanted to write a bit more about psychiatry and about Cargo Cult Science and pseudoscience, but these things also have to be queued awaiting somewhat better times.

Meanwhile, in contrast with the "HEALTH WARNING" I relayed yesterday and continueing my comments thereon here is first some sweet relief of it and then something related to it I wrote in 2009.

1. Sweet relief: Feynman + Machine Learning
2. Ayaan and me

1. Sweet relief: Feynman + Machine Learning

The sweet relief is "And now for something completely different":

The dotted links are two two sets of four lectures each, and the undotted link is for more catholic enjoyment (Every sperm is sacred).

Feynman (<- Wikipedia) should need no introduction, and the overall title of the four lectures is "Today's answers to Newtons queries about light". It helps a lot of you read his 'Lectures on Physics', but is fascinating, I trust, for those who didn't.

Sam Roweis (<- Memorial page) I hadn't heard of, and I just found he died this year, aged only 38. The lectures I liked a lot and found only recently, but then they are about things I much thought about, and might have published about if only mayor Job Cohen had been a decent man or if in Amsterdam nothing worse had happened the past 26 years than the replacement of the trams by moving adverts. (In fact, I did lecture about stuff very much like is in the first lecture in 1989.) Roweis' lectures are very good, but I don't believe you will be relieved or enlightened in any way without some familiarity of at least some that is involved, though a good course or book in mathematical statistics or probability theory will explain most of the maths involved.

Have fun!

2. Ayaan and me

As you may have learned yesterday from the materials I linked in (not directly from what I wrote yesterday), I remigrated to Holland from Norway in 1977, and roughly since then my life got much worse:

First I got ME on 1.1.1979 (then Epstein Barr: mononucleosis), and when I thought I might be on my way to recovery in 1987-1988, mayor Ed van Thijn thought the house where I lived in in Amsterdam a fit place to have illegal drugs dealt from with his personal permissions; the drugsdealers didn't believe the neighbours needed to sleep at night; I protested and got threatened, got gassed, indeed a few months after having been removed as a student of philosophy in the University of Amsterdam for asking 39 Questions, got laughed at by munipial police in answer to my complaints about murder threats by drugsdealers - "we murder you if you do anything we don't like", literally: how is that for "personal harassment"? (*) - when I had the courage to complain; turned to Mayor van Thijn, who swore daily that he was mayor "In The Name Of The Ideals Of The February Strike", co-organising with my father and grandfather had been arrested by Amsterdam policemen in 1941 and condemned to concentration camp imprisonment for, who then proceeded to do nothing the next six years, not even answering my letters or complaints nor my urgent personal requests to his personal guardian (I wasn't allowed to see, talk or phone his worthiness) to at least phone me, but no and thus it went on and on and on and on... see ME in Amsterdam, if you read Dutch.

The Netherlands has not been a happy place for me, in brief: I have been threatened with murder by drugsmafiosi protected by mayors who clearly didn't give a fuck whether I lived or died, was gassed or lived in peace, as long as the drugsdealing continued and evident corruption in Amsterdam bureaucracy and the criminal neglect of themselves to maintain the Dutch laws and protect my human rights was NOT investigated by anyone. And so it happened.

Meanwhile, The Netherlands was extremely good for lying and scheming economical refugees. Here is a piece I wrote in 2009 in English, with many links mostly to Dutch material, some two weeks before learning about the Lombardi et al paper about XMRV:

Meer juffrouw Ali = More on Ms Ali = The hollow men

As Shelley wrote: "Poets are the unacknowledged legislators of mankind" - at least sometimes (Homer, Chaucer, Dante, Shakespeare, Lafontaine, Heine), and here is some relevant evidence for that thesis, also by a poet, followed by a survey of some hollow men and women that illustrate it.

The hollow men

We are the hollow men
We are the stuffed men
Leaning together
Headpiece filled with straw. Alas!
Our dried voices, when
We whisper together
Are quiet and meaningless
As wind in dry grass
Or rats' feet over broken glass
In our dry cellar  

Shape without form, shade without colour,
Paralysed force, gesture without motion;  

Those who have crossed
With direct eyes, to death's other Kingdom
Remember us-if at all-not as lost
Violent souls, but only
As the hollow men
The stuffed men

T.S. Eliot (partial quote)

This piece and what it links to, all on my site (except for the fine poem quoted in part above from another site that is linked in), is mixed Dutch and English, and lists mosts of what I wrote in Nederlog, mostly in Dutch, about Ms. Ali - as I call her, for that is her last name, she says, and this Ms. is not married - namely, the Somali-Dutch ex-refugee, ex-parlementarian, ex-Dutch Labour, ex-Resistance-Fighter, ex-would-be French citizen, and present American Enterprise Institute employee, where she sits at the feet of the great Dick Cheney to greedily drink up all he has to give about becoming a political success in the best neo-conservative Republican modern TV-traditions.

I believe I have analysed her rightly and fairly, as it also has turned out in the course of the five years I did so, and since I also think that this deserves a somewhat wider readership than the Dutch give it, I wrote this in English and point you directly to two English pieces about her: Ayaan Hirsi Ali and her mates: A psychological experiment - 2.

The rest of what is in fact a fairly extensive well-written diagnosis of postmodern politicking and careerism is nearly all in Dutch only, but I'll keep this mostly in English and also add a few English explanations:

A few days ago I quickly read through the pieces I wrote about miss Ali, the supposed Black Somali-Dutch Resistance-Fightress And Thinker Of World-Status (so Times-Newsweek concluded, some years ago: she was supposed to be one of the one-hundred brightest and best minds of the present generation), which I did not do before, and found that I still quite agree, and also that I indeed have been proved right by the facts (in so far as one can be proved right on ever-evasive ever-posing slick political careerists, of course).

In October 2007 I also put together a survey of the pieces I wrote about her since 2004, that was also partially motivated by my having known Theo van Gogh personally - and the link is to an amusing Dutch interview I had with him and published precisely 20 years ago - and my belief that unfortunately Theo led himself be abused by Miss Ali 's political careerism (and curves and seductive smiles, very probably, and also by Theo's own prejudices and inclinations, that also are explained in the linked interview, that originally was for an audience of psychologists).

So here is an update of that survey up to today - and I also recommend that you read the English piece that follows today or tomorrow, on Ervin Goffman's "The Presentation of Self in Ordinary Society", for that book, that deserves far wider readership than it got, thought it is known deservedly as a classic in sociology and psychology, clarifies a lot about the ordinary human role-playing, emptyness, multi-layered and multifold hypocrisies, that has become the norm in the West - and that also explains a lot about the moral and intellectual decline of Western civilization over the last 40 years or so, including the erosion of all moral and intellectual standards, and their replacements by postmodernistic impression-management, and indeed also about such would-be postmodern opinion-makers and political leaders like Glenn Beck, Russ Limbaugh, Geert Wilders, miss Ali and Rita Verdonk.

For it seems these are indeed all of the sort of - the Calvinists would say: sinful and depraved - human cloth the Glenn Beck persona is made of, that in so far as I can see is a kind of personality that in my very well-trained psychologist's mind (**) seems to provide excellent footage of a man who strongly seems to have many kinds of mental issues and who seems to be of very doubtful sanity:

Note also that the same person has accused Obama of being "a racist", "a communist" and many more things that are factually so obviously totally false that only morons, neo-con Republicans and the functionally insane could possibly take them serious - and that regardless of one's politics also, and also regardless of one's personal assessment of Obama (since even John McCain denied these racialist slurs, and rightly so).

But on to my survey of five years of Ms. Ali-antics-descriptions - and the squarely starred items - "[*]" - are (mostly or wholly) in English, while the rest is in Dutch:



Mar 20 Halsema over hysterisch Holland
Mar 24 Verdonk's videos en de mores van cipiers
Nov 6 Ali
Nov 12 Ayaan Hirsi Ali [*] (Best English summary, for US readership)
Dec 20 Verdonk





Sep 25  Meer juffrouw Ali = More on Ms Ali = The hollow men [*]

The last is today's piece, and the poetical judgment on Ms Ali and her likes - fellow Republicans also, it seems - seems quite fair and factually adequate to me (and like most Dutchmen I only was undeceived about her many lies about her being a political refugee and Freedom Fighter in and around Somalia in 2007, during the parlementarian debates about her, that she ended by effectively fleeing to Dick Cheney's American Enterprises Institute).

In the end, the real rational evidence for my thesis is in the sociological and psychological literature on Groupthinking, that runs from Aristotle, De la Boťtie, Machiavelli, Mandeville, Swift, Gibbon, Hazlitt and Mill to Orwell, Burnham, and Goffman, and that is not by far as well-read and well-understood as it ought to be. (All the links in this paragraph are to material on my site, and are very worthy of your serious consideration, if you are interested in politics at all.)

More of this today or tomorrow - and here is in conclusion my personal psychological advice to Ms Ali: Shut up, lay low, and finally really try to do some decent studying, thinking and writing - or else become a Louis Vutton model, where all would-bes of days of yore gather these days to milk their eroded fame for a little more financial fortune, so as to help sell extremely ugly extremely expensive status-show-shit for dumbos and phoneys.

Alas Ms., you just do not have the wherewithall for something better, for if you had, you have had 5 years of fame to show it, and all you have shown is intellectual and moral thousandth-rate trash: You are not a decent thinker, not as much as a halfway decent politician, and not even a political refugee at all, as you lied when you arrived in Holland to profit from its economical riches: You are a born fashion model with delusions of grandeur.

And it is not just that, as Lord Acton said so well "All power corrupts": it is that the desire for power is usually a clear sign of moral and personal corruption, notably these days of cheap media-fame, and especially in those who pose their curves and smiles for political upman-ship without having the brains and knowledge to write or speak rationally and reasonably about any of the social, moral and philosophical topics they meddle with.

And as the poet wrote

Between the desire
And the spasm
Between the potency
And the existence
Between the essence
And the descent
Falls the Shadow
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper.
T.S. Eliot (partial quote)

P.S. (Of Sep 25, 2009): And as I wrote before in Dutch: It is not that Ms. Ali may originally have meant well, for this I even grant to Joseph Stalin and Adolf Hitler, who also started their political careers as young idealists, and it is also not that I regard her as worse than the average Dutch parlementarian, that also are intellectual and moral incompetents by my standards, for I don't.

It is that I regard her as a cheapo - a political careerist who cannot even cite Glenn Beckian mental issues in exoneration: She is smart enough to know that she is crafted together from poses and roles she doesn't have the intellectual and moral talents for, while she is not messed up enough to mean it mostly honestly.

To finish with two apt bitterly true sayings, one already given yesterday:

You do not know the unfathomable cowardice of humanity... servile in the face of force, pitiless in the face of weakness, implacable before blunders, indulgent before crimes... and patient to the point of martyrdom before all the violences of bold despotism.
   -- NiccolÚ Machiavelli
"One does not hate as long as one despises."
   -- Nietzsche


P.S. (Of 22 Sep 2010): Unfortunately, the comparison I drew between Ms. Ali and myself is only in Dutch, but I recommend it to readers of Dutch as a fair statement of Why my family was in The Dutch Resistance  in WW II : Not to prevent me from being gassed and have what remained of my health utterly ruined for decades, and not to prevent me being thrown from the university for having the courage to speak and write the truth in public, but to allow Ms. Ali become world-famous and Ms. Goudsmit to study in Leiden and Amsterdam. They did not suffer in vain: They suffered so that these and mafiosi and drugscorrupt Amsterdam mayors and bureaucrats could make careers and prosper, and meanwhile have me gassed, thrown from the university, denied the right to take a Ph.D., and denied the rights to all help, all benefits, all assistance for over three decades because I have a disease that is not yet fully known and opinions that are unpopular and the courage to formulate and make them public nevertheless.

Corrections must happen later:

P.P.S. It may be I have to stop Nederlog for a while. The reason is that I am physically not well at all. I don't know yet, but if there is no Nederlog, now you know the reason.


As to ME/CFS (that I prefer to call ME):

1. Anthony Komaroff

Ten discoveries about the biology of CFS (pdf)

3. Hillary Johnson

The Why

4. Consensus (many M.D.s) Canadian Consensus Government Report on ME (pdf)
5. Eleanor Stein

Clinical Guidelines for Psychiatrists (pdf)

6. William Clifford The Ethics of Belief
7. Paul Lutus

Is Psychology a Science?

8. Malcolm Hooper Magical Medicine (pdf)

Short descriptions:

1. Ten reasons why ME/CFS is a real disease by a professor of medicine of Harvard.
2. Long essay by a professor emeritus of medical chemistry about maltreatment of ME.
3. Explanation of what's happening around ME by an investigative journalist.
4. Report to Canadian Government on ME, by many medical experts.
5. Advice to psychiatrist by a psychiatrist who understands ME is an organic disease
6. English mathematical genius on one's responsibilities in the matter of one's beliefs:
   "it is wrong always, everywhere, and for anyone, to believe anything upon
     insufficient evidence
7. A space- and computer-scientist takes a look at psychology.
8. Malcolm Hooper puts things together status 2010.

    "Ah me! alas, pain, pain ever, forever!

No change, no pause, no hope! Yet I endure.
I ask the Earth, have not the mountains felt?
I ask yon Heaven, the all-beholding Sun,
Has it not seen? The Sea, in storm or calm,
Heaven's ever-changing Shadow, spread below,
Have its deaf waves not heard my agony?
Ah me! alas, pain, pain ever, forever!
     - (Shelley, "Prometheus Unbound") 

    "It was from this time that I developed my way of judging the Chinese by dividing them into two kinds: one humane and one not. "
     - (Jung Chang)


See also: ME -Documentation and ME - Resources

P.P.S. ME - Resources needs is a Work In Progress that hasn't progressed today.

(*) The reason I asked "how is that for "personal harassment"?" is that Ms. Goudsmit, some of whose excellencies were yodelled about yesterday on this place, maintains - have read my site, knowing of me since 1989 - that the worst things that happened in Amsterdam since she left it, well before the year 1989 to my knowledge, was that the trams were changed into moving adverts under mayors Van Thijn and Cohen, both of whom had me rather threatened with murder and gassed by drugsdealers they had given personal permission, with their own signatures, to deal in illegal drugs, but NEVER from houses or vicinities were Amsterdam's mayors, aldermen, councilmembers or leading journalists and member of Dutch Labour live, probably precisely because I am the son and grandson of Amsterdam heroes of the resistance against the Nazi occupation and the razzias and transports on the Jews.

Messrs. Van Thijn and Cohen, like Ms. Goudsmit, and all aldermen and councilmembers of Amsterdam, rather see an invalid person from my background gassed and threatened with murder and thrown from the municipal university, than maintain the law or act like responsible accountable persons instead of collaborators of the Amsterdam drugsmafia, I must infer from what happened and was and was not written by others about it.

A final point to make: In fact, the whole attitude of messrs. Van Thijn and Cohen to me and all aldermen and councilmembers of Amsterdam and all Amsterdam bureaucrats since then, all collaborators of the drugsmafia, for dealing in drugs is forbidden under Dutch law, hence all drugs criminals, turned out to be - for I did not know that at the time I was gassed and threatened by drugsdealers protected by Amsterdam policemen and Amsterdam mayors and aldermen - precisely like the attitude of many medical doctors and many bureaucrats the world over in response to patients with ME: You lie, you are mad, you don't deserve any answer, you won't get any help whatever you say or write, what do we care whether you live or die, are in pain or not, get maltreated or not? We are in our careers for the money we make, not to maintain your rights or your health - those are just the public lies we make to get to positions of political or medical power. Or to put it in German: "Du bist ein Untermensch; wir sind Űbermenschen!"

I believe the reason the mayors of Amsterdam didn't answer my letters and mails is that I put these manner of things explicitly, in terms of personal responsibility, ALSO of mayors, EVEN of Amsterdam, because I do not want to be gassed nor threatened with murder in the city of the February Strike now Mafia paradise on the Amstel, thanks to mayors Van Thijn, Patijn and Cohen. But I graciously admit that drugscorrupt aldermen and drugscorrupt policemen and other municipal bureaucrats, just like drugsmafiosi and their personal lawyers, have lived in a personal Walhalla in Amsterdam since decades. Apparently that's Why my family was in The Dutch Resistance  in WW II.

For more, see the Dutch Parliamentary Van Traarapport of 1995, written after I was gassed and threatened by Amsterdam drugsmafiosi, demonstrating the drugs-corruption of Amsterdam, even if Ms. Goudsmit doesn't approve of such demonstrations because they don't fit her prejudices.

Maarten Maartensz

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