June 21, 2010


ME + me :  Melancholia + The Daily ME


I am still not well at all and still sad, and today mostly reproduce, namely Duerer and Melancholia and the argument for The Daily ME, in brief form. If there is any satire, it is in the PS.

1. Duerer and Melancholia

In a way, I grew up with Duerer: My parents, although poor, had a thick German volume with many reproductions of Duerer's etchings. Here is one: Melancholia.

If you look well, and with some knowledge, there are many references to many things, besides which Duerer was a most amazing draughtsman.

As to the causes for melancholia, here us 'Ordinary Men' by Christopher Browning (writing in 1996):

I fear we live in a world in which war and racism are ubiquitous, in which the powers of government mobilization and legitimization are powerful and increasing, in which a sense of personal responsibility is increasingly attenuated by specialization and bureaucratization, and in which peer-group exerts tremendous pressures on behavior and sets moral norms. In such a world, I fear, modern governments that wish to commit mass murder will seldom fail in their efforts for being unable to induce "ordinary men" to become their "willing executioners." " (p. 222-3)

And an application that also explains being melancholic, if one has ME for three decades, of which two have been mostly wasted by the antics of the sadistic beasts and pseudo-scientists Wessely, White, Bleijenberg and Van der Meer can be read here

Here Mindy Kitei tells the story how three patients with ME were almost or completely murdered by MEdical sadism, in particular of the medical sadist Wessely or his followers. (*)

2. The Daily ME

So I got an idea:

The Daily ME

A MUCH better setup than a mere forum (probably flooded soon by trolls, idiots and suckers, but OK...that is the internet, and all is anonymous, and patients with ME may be dangerous to established medical and bureaucratical interests), is a good forum attached to which is The Daily ME, being a daily electronic paper written by 10-40 people who wrote best on PR-F, and who are known to be almost certainly all really ill and really capable, all set up like a daily paper for persons with ME, where the staff of the paper is closed for all but those 10-40 (who may later elect others) but anyone can comment.

Thus, it is much like a Blog, including comments, but it is written by 10-40 of those who have proved themselves to be personally reliable, capable and trustworthy, while keeping out all trolls, all false pretenders, and all incompetents.

Such a collaborative blog would differ logistically not much from an ordinary forum except that (i) it has a restricted number of members (writers, editors) so as to avoid trolls taking over or dictating the tone and topics and (ii) all people can react, but as in a Blog, i.e. not in the Blog or paper, but under it.

So: as I see it, you would have a largish group of people, say 25, mostly ill, who would take care that every day an issue of The Daily ME appears. And if this can be combined with a forum, it would be even better.

This probably is the best and indeed the only way to get a Real Science Forum about ME and get the patients voice heard while preventing trolls and anonymous psycho-pros taking over the whole setup while fucking up ill people who stand in their way or who dare protest, as happened on PR-F.

This seems the simplest idea to have the best of both worlds: A forum for all patients with ME, and anyone else besides, whether troll or insane or simply lost on the net, since on an anonymous forum these cannot be excluded with any hope on fair success, combined with a Blog on which a staff of known good writers and reasoners, all well-known and well-respected former members of PR-F, can do their thing, as if it were a daily paper.

Indeed, the ordinary forum members may aspire to become staff writer, but need to prove themselves thoroughly (no Corts, Marks or Martlets, not by any other name either, for example), while posts of the ordinary forum members may be made part of the The Daily ME - which then also is much more concentrated than a forum, and can be sent to the real papers, real media a.s.o.:

Here are We Patients With ME, without admixture of impostures, freaks, trolls or CAA-staff pretending to be just anybody with ME; with daily well-written new articles on any and all aspects of ME; by proven writers; with possibility for comments by any comers, as on a normal Blog, but on a daily basis to keep it tractable and in relatively small chunks; possibly with specials for special subjects or special guests, and best of all: No trolls, no bullshit, no evasions, no false promises, no theft of one's posts - real science and real good writing by and for real patients with ME.

This is best combined with a forum, rather like PR-F in the days it was good, but with much better and also much more honest and without moderators who behave and write as if they are sadists from KCL, albeit merely that the combination of too much power for their weak characters and an education on a nun's or English public school may be responsible or the sadism.

An ordinary forum, I have found, is not for me, at least not as "Maarten Maartensz", for then I am sitting there visibly like a sick duck, ready to be shot at by anonymous bastards. I can only be on a forum for patients with ME where it is not clear who I am, for else I will be played for a sucker by what I see as human beasts (namely, if they are psycho-pros from London, Nijmegen or the CDC).

In general, for patients with ME: What I am interested in is finding truly intelligent, educated capable people who can together form a force against the forces of darkness emanating from KCL, CDC, Radboud etc. and against the average stupidity and populism that is dominant in the masses, including the academically educated in great majority, most of whom never should have been admitted in a university.

And such people I want to write The Daily ME, in order to shine the line of truth on the subject, by patients for patients, in the first place, but meant to become an important player as regards ME, on the internet and possibly elsewhere.

This seems to me by far the best possibility of making the real voice of real patients heard, both because it concentrates the best minds and best writers with ME in one place, surrounded if possible by a support-group in the form of a forum, and because it protects these people from trolls and psycho-pro beasts posing as ill people, who interfere - as PR-F shows - in all manner of devious ways, while it also protects such a group of writers and editors from being played by economical/political trolls with ties to the CAA or other (would be or real) patients organizations.

P.S. So that's what I want - and I think it is a new and good idea that should be realized, and that I am willing to work for, because the PR-Fs have shown it is not possible for an open group with anonymous posters to keep the trolls out who are the real enemy, trained in beastliness and sadism, at the feet of Simon Wessely the murdering psycho-pro, and at this very moment trolling PR-F and sucking up to real patients with talent and writing ability, "to make friends" and then if possible drive them to suicide.

This is what I think was attempted in my case - for the dirt, the deviousness, the sickness, and the stinking sadism were all three times of pro capacity (which is to say that I suffered a lot of abuse, but never the level of stinking shit levelled at me by Kurt, Bob, and Mark, protected by the totally spineless Tootsie Johnson, and that I also never have had to witness such a completely insane and sick SM game as happened between the mentally sick twats and twits that "moderate" the PR-Fs by sadism, lies, evasions, trickery, provocation and anti-semitism on PR-F if that comes in handy).

I think this devious planned sadism aimed at kicking people out and hurting them as much as possible, while appearing to be innocent, also happened in other cases, like that of Kim.

In my case, it was provoked by completely nothing but the facts that I can think and write and have a large site, and can defeat subhumans like the beast from hell that Wessely is in any direct debate, whether written or spoken, if I have some energy and time: I have the abilities and the knowledge, provably so, and have defeated many professors in argument, quite a few a lot more capable, if also usually a lot more honest, than Wessely.

So therefore I am quite dangerous for the Wesselyte and Van der Meerian degenerate fascists and terrorists (I can say those things about these latter-day doctors MEngele (*), for I have been declared a fascist and a terrorist in Amsterdam, because I spoke the truth, it turns out, as established by later parliamentarian investigations, and I spoke the truth both about education and drugs in Holland; I have been gassed in Amsterdam by drugsmafiosi, against whom I protested, with the consent and protection of the human beastly fascist terrorist Van Thijn and his drugs-corrupt bureaucrats), and all manner of the dirtiest bastards that fit a human body may start imparting their undying love and admiration fro me on a forum for patients with ME, only to better pull the rug from under me.

Finally, a patients forum like PR-F, but much better led and moderated, is something of major importance to many persons with ME, both to socialize with persons similarly afflicted, to exchange experiences, and to find and pool information about ME.

It can exist, quite possibly for a long time also, provided it is led and moderated by persons who are benevolent, intelligent, and competent, but I doubt it ever will be a major force in the media, in ME-politics, or in other ways, and that simply because it has turned out to be made very easily subject to all manner of attempts to control it by anonymous pros from the CAA, the CDC, the KCL, Nijmegen University, and other places, simply because there are MANY medical doctors who must FEAR the emergence of a patients group led by capable people, and therefore will do their utmost to poison or explode such emerging groups, or head it themselves, as I suspect may be the case in PR-F (!!), since its owner either is a complete incompetent besides being spineless, or else has been argueing amazingly much as if CAA and CDC are, all in all, Good Things for the American patient with ME, and his moderators are stupid and cruel jerks at best.

As to ME/CFS (that I prefer to call ME):

1. Anthony Komaroff

Ten discoveries about the biology of CFS (pdf)

3. Hillary Johnson

The Why

4. Consensus (many M.D.s) Canadian Consensus Government Report on ME (pdf)
5. Eleanor Stein

Clinical Guidelines for Psychiatrists (pdf)

6. William Clifford The Ethics of Belief
7. Paul Lutus

Is Psychology a Science?

8. Malcolm Hooper Magical Medicine (pdf)

Short descriptions:

1. Ten reasons why ME/CFS is a real disease by a professor of medicine of Harvard.
2. Long essay by a professor emeritus of medical chemistry about maltreatment of ME.
3. Explanation of what's happening around ME by an investigative journalist.
4. Report to Canadian Government on ME, by many medical experts.
5. Advice to psychiatrist by a psychiatrist who understands ME is an organic disease
6. English mathematical genius on one's responsibilities in the matter of one's beliefs:
   "it is wrong always, everywhere, and for anyone, to believe anything upon
     insufficient evidence
7. A space- and computer-scientist takes a look at psychology.
8. Malcolm Hooper puts things together status 2010.

"Ah me! alas, pain, pain ever, forever!

No change, no pause, no hope! Yet I endure.
I ask the Earth, have not the mountains felt?
I ask yon Heaven, the all-beholding Sun,
Has it not seen? The Sea, in storm or calm,
Heaven's ever-changing Shadow, spread below,
Have its deaf waves not heard my agony?
Ah me! alas, pain, pain ever, forever!
     - (Shelley, "Prometheus Unbound") 

    "It was from this time that I developed my way of judging the Chinese by dividing them into two kinds: one humane and one not. "
     - (Jung Chang)

See also: ME -Documentation and ME - Resources

P.P.S. ME - Resources needs is a Work In Progress that hasn't progressed today.

(*) In fact, I will be very pleased to appear in court, dressed in the concentration-camp clothes of my father and grandfather, with a Davidstar and a red triangle, and speak the truth about the postmodern  generation of the complete equivalents (I was taught at the University of Amsterdam) of doctor Mengele himself (if they are not much worse, since they cannot plead a war or a dictatorship in exoneration: A Wessely really loves torturing people).

So yes: I really like to discuss the implications of my disease, of 32 years of maltreatment by Amsterdam fascists and terrorists posing as Jews and Socialists but working for the Amsterdam drugsmafia or destroying the universities in order to make demented assholes like them "leading academics", and of my experiences with ME and my present knowledge the amazing, insane medieval utter bullshit a Wessely, a Van der Meer, a White and a Bleijenberg dare spout, as if we are back at the Middle Ages, including torturing, as Hard Cell makes quite clear, as did my Studies in MEdical sadism - 10: Some strong and graphic evidence that support what is written in Hard Cell.

Maarten Maartensz

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