Studies in MEdical sadism - 10: Some strong and graphic evidence
I always do my own thinking, inferring and concluding, for my own
reasons, and everything I've written about ME since October 2009 on this
site, when I head for the first about the XMRV virus (*)
and not long after that first found the Phoenix Rising site and then the
Phoenix Rising (PR) Forums (PR-F), that I became a member of on January 7
and left on May 22 2010, for reasons expounded in
Nederlog in the month May.
There will be some more about PR-F in the next Nederlog, but this
Nederlog is given to my
Studies in MEdical sadism that I started in January:
Studies in MEdical Sadism - 0
since I had come to conclude that I could only explain quite a lot I had
learned about ME since October 2009 by assuming that intentional and
unintentional sadism on the part of medical people - including nurses,
paramedics, medical doctors, psychotherapists, psychiatrists and also
health-bureaucrats, civil servants etc. - played a much larger role than
I and almost anyone else had assumed (**).
Next, I should add that (1) I had made that hypothesis
much earlier about my own case, but my own case is quite
special, and the treatment and discrimination I received, while connected
with ME because that is the disease I have since 32 years, were not so
much due to my having ME as with my
being me with
ME in Amsterdam, which
is a pretty unique case
and background, that goes beyond
ME onto various other ill or corruptly regulated matters in Holland,
notably education and drugs, but (2) had not extended it further because
I did not have fast internet until July 2009, and very bad internet from
2002-2009, and therefore did not know very much about and around ME that
I have since learned.
Most notably (3) professor Malcom Hooper's writings about
ME (see below) were unknown to me until October 2009, and he was the
first man I read who thought mostly about ME as I had come to do on my
own, from my own case and what I had learned on the internet through a
slow telephone-modem, except that he knows much more about than I do, and
very much more about the decades of abuse of especially but not solely
English patients with ME.
This quite radically changed my perspective, and in fact
to a much more bitter one than I had before - see here, in Dutch: ME-disch
sadisme op wereldschaal:
- because until October 2009 I had tended to assume that the
largest part (**) of my ill-treatment with ME in
Amsterdam were not due to my having ME but to my being me, and having
very strongly, radically and satirically having criticized the
drugs-corruption in Amsterdam and the educational decline in Holland and
in particular the corruption, mismanagement and politicization and
moronification of educatuon at the University of Amsterdam (whence I was
thrice removed "because of your outspoken opinions", as I was gassed and
threatened with murder by drugsmaffiosi the mayor of Amsterdam and the
city-police protected and positioned on the bottom floor of the house
where I tried to survive with ME, after having been evicted from another
because I received no dole and no study-loan for half a year, probably
also to teach me to respect Amsterdam and Dutch authorities).
Anyway... to arrive at my subject: Here are some links of
videos on Youtube about ME I first saw today that very strongly support
my own conclusions about MEdical sadism that I came to for my own
Please note Dr. McIntyre has ME; like Ean Proctor (about
whose compos mentis I had seen a member of PR-F I suspect of trolling
raise questions months ago); Liz Gilderdale had ME and died because of
it; and Sophia Mirza had ME and was effectively murdered through medical
P.S. Otherwise I have no comment for the videos
are very strong evidence in themselves, besides being in some ways very
unpleasant if very fair and justified (though especially Mrs Criona
Wilson, Sophia Mirza's mother, is an amazingly courageous and mentally
P.P.S. The next issue - the fourth of today - has
news about ME forums.
As to ME/CFS (that I prefer to call ME):
1. Ten reasons why ME/CFS is a real disease by a professor
of medicine of Harvard.
2. Long essay by a professor emeritus of medical chemistry about
maltreatment of ME.
3. Explanation of what's happening around ME by an investigative
4. Report to Canadian Government on ME, by many medical experts.
5. Advice to psychiatrist by a psychiatrist who understands ME is an
6. English mathematical genius on one's responsibilities in the matter
of one's beliefs:
is wrong always, everywhere, and for anyone, to believe anything upon
7. A space- and computer-scientist takes a look at psychology.
8. Malcolm Hooper puts things together status 2010.
me! alas, pain, pain ever, forever!
No change, no pause, no hope! Yet I endure.
I ask the Earth, have not the mountains felt?
I ask yon Heaven, the all-beholding Sun,
Has it not seen? The Sea, in storm or calm,
Heaven's ever-changing Shadow, spread below,
Have its deaf waves not heard my agony?
Ah me! alas, pain, pain ever, forever!"
- (Shelley, "Prometheus Unbound")
"It was from this time that I developed my way of judging the
Chinese by dividing them into two kinds: one humane and one not. "
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needs is a Work In Progress that hasn't progressed today.
(*) A bit overly much in that the last
two letters in "XMRV" also stand for "retrovirus", but OK: Now we know
but such is usage, so far.
(**) This is difficult to quantify,
for my history with ME extends over 32 years and comprises very many
incompetent medical doctors, civil servants, university bureaucrats and
what not, and various - very many, almost all completely unanswered -
requests and pleas for help with many institutions.
In some cases, such ill treatment, refusals to help,
lies, denigrations, defamations and discriminations I received had only
to do with my having ME (and not another disease or other reason); in
some cases it had only to do with me being me in Amsterdam (mostly
for political reasons in Amsterdam and with the UvA, and sometimes for
personal reasons because I do not take personal shit lying down and am
far more intelligent than the idiots who think they can abuse me without
risk); in most cases - notably all the Dutch Ombudsmen, both national and
of Amsterdam, the Amsterdam medical organization GGD, the Stichting
40-45, everybody I had to deal with as mayors, aldermen or
council-members in Amsterdam - it was both, in various proportions.
And one point to keep in mind is that my own position and
experiences and personal history with ME in Amsterdam is quite unique and
must be quite different from whatever horrors other Dutchmen with ME and
without help had to live through, albeit in their case medical and
bureaucratical incompetence and indifference and malice probably played
large roles as well.
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